Feb 072018

javier-penas-scaryI haven’t written in a while. Mostly because I’ve not been dating or wanting to date or not even wanting to have sex.

A few weeks ago, I realized it was because I was scared. But the scared back then wasn’t the scared I am.

See since last June, I’ve had an ex that harasses me and stalks me. The stress of it and that it seems to be a pattern with me.. of picking the wrong men/boys… I stopped wanting to date altogether.

But I didn’t stop going out.

A few months ago, I was date rape drugged.. but nothing happened. I got home safe and sound.

But it happened again this passed weekend. Same bar. Same time. Same night of the week.  Fortunately I had my drink confiscated 1/4 the way through, and a friend driving me home.

But now I’m scared that someone is targeting me.  I went all my life until now without any date rape drugs being slipped to me, didn’t even happen in college. Now twice in just a few months?

Worse, is that I watch my drink religiously. So they have to get close to me and drop in my drink as I’m walking around.

Which likely means I know them.

Which makes it even more scary.

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