But this cold is going to be the death of me.
Ok I exaggerate. If it’s not gone soon, I will be sharing it with someone.
I have never in my entire life had this much of a sex drive. NEVER. Not in my teens. Not in my twenties.
And now.. I’ve a cold so no one wants do anything with me. 🙁
Could have had sex yesterday.. twice.. with at least three different men as options. Nope. Stupid cold.
Could .. right now.. be having sex with one of the men from last night. But no. Stupid cold.
I had hoped tonight to get together with John, but again.. stupid cold.
Cold (according to Dr Google) won’t be gone until the earliest Saturday. I am trying to wait patiently but it’s not really working.
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In the good news though, I have found someone online who reminds me of John in a lot of the good ways but is more able to give me the constant attention I desire. I’m needy. Shh.
And it’s moving fast. He’s stimulating my brain in ways that as long as he’s not completely revolting and is adequately hygienic… we’re going to be together for a while.
Garath’s profile indicates he’s open to an open relationship.. and I think we’re going to have that talk on Saturday.
There’s things I want to explore.. that I need to explore.. and I still really want to do things with John.. that I’m not sure I’m willing to commit to monogamy this quickly… and yeah it’s moving that quickly. (This so weird since I’m generally all monogamy all day, but right now I want to fuck every dick, so.. it’s going to have to be open or Imma gunna fuck it up.)
And I’m not really scared about it. We seem to instantly “get” each other. We both think very similarly, logically, rationally… that this might just work out if we can stand each other in other ways.
He already has a few hangups that I’m going to have issue with… like he will NOT talk on the phone. He’ll text me all day, but he won’t talk on the phone.
I’ve already told him that I will want to change the way he dresses. He seemed willing to find some middle ground, maybe.
We talked about religion, politics, computers, lifestyles, etc and so on. No red flags and he answered everything perfectly.
We’ve talked pretty much non-stop since we started messaging online last night. Last thing before sleep and first thing this AM, and all day…
I’m starting to aggravate my carpal tunnel and I still have a few hours of work to do. 🙁 oops.