I’m having one of those moments. No no.. not those kind of moments.. You sickos. 🙂
I’m having one of those reflective moments. It’s caused in part by a separation that I’m feeling acutely, but of which I don’t know for certain is real. I just feel alone.
Somewhere along the way, I began to.. Hmm how do I explain this?
When something happens, you know that first person you call to tell it to? That person you call when you’re sad, so they can hold you (either physically or emotionally).
See I went quite awhile without having that person. Actually, that person was probably this blog for a while. Then somewhere along the way, someone else became that person.
Funny thing is that I don’t even think they know.. or knew.
But now there’s something between us. I feel it. It could just be my imagination, but I know in my heart it’s not.
It’s breaking my heart, but there’s nothing I can do about it.
So I sit here. By the phone. Wanting to call.
But crying instead.