Jul 082017
 
When you really want to hate someone, but God has other plans.

Since my last post, Mr TakeMe and I have fallen out. See the very next day, Mr TakeMe got back together with his ex. This is a pattern now. Every time we get close and have a “date-like” time together and he starts to have feelings… he runs back to her. And I am done with it. However, all the […]

Jul 042017
 
End of Fuckboy Setting: Gearing up for actual dating.

So I woke up late (10pm) last night as usual, and debated on showering vs going back to bed.  So I text Mr. TakeMe and ask if we’re having sex tonight. Keep in mind, that we’ve agreed that he’s just a fuckboy to me. Just sex. No emotions. Nothing resembling a relationship. Mr TakeMe replies: “Come to the [name] bar […]

Jul 022017
 
The Official Fuckboy Setting, also met someone new.

Saturday night, I am dolled up. I’m out at the bars and just arrive at the second bar when. Mr TakeMe messages me. It’s Saturday night and I know he has his kid. He can’t leave his house. Mr TakeMe: Hi How’s your night going? Me: Lol. I’m good. How’s my fuckboy? Mr TakeMe: Yes ma’am if that’s what you […]

Jul 012017
 
Adventures in Drinking. Also the return of Mr. TakeMe.

So I somehow managed to get drunk AND piss people off, while still having a great night. I’m still confused about it all really. But let’s start near the beginning. I woke up at 8pm. (Yes you read that right). To a FB message from George giving me a heads up that he was going out or at least thinking […]

Jun 282017
 
I am the furniture.

When Mr. TakeMe is drunk or been drinking at all, we have a wonderful time. He is loving and sweet and we share amazing moments. When he is sober, I am the furniture. I am the reliable chair or snuggly blanket. Always there. Essential to keeping him comfortable, but nothing more. Last night, Mr. TakeMe actually called me. He usually […]

Jun 262017
 
The Great Sex Withdrawal

I had a great day on Friday. I was “over” Mr. TakeMe. I could move on. I met new people. Met a great guy. On Saturday, the sex withdrawal started to hit me. It didn’t help that I had a really great makeout session the night before without sex to finish it off.  Then George started testing me his crazy, […]

Jun 242017
 
The power of a good dress.

So after accepting Mr TakeMe for who he is, my mind settled and clarity snuck in. I finally felt good. Clear. Motivated. I’m sure there’s other factors that went into it as well as my health plays a part in all this odd emotional brain bullshit too. But feeling clear.. I finally cleaned out my car. I suddenly realized that […]