Jul 022017
The Official Fuckboy Setting, also met someone new.

Saturday night, I am dolled up. I’m out at the bars and just arrive at the second bar when. Mr TakeMe messages me. It’s Saturday night and I know he has his kid. He can’t leave his house. Mr TakeMe: Hi How’s your night going? Me: Lol. I’m good. How’s my fuckboy? Mr TakeMe: Yes ma’am if that’s what you […]

Jun 182017
This is not the Friend Zone. Please don't let this be the Friend Zone.

Saturday night (last night), .. well actually lets just start with the entire Saturday first. I woke up smelling like Jose. Instant depression. I hated myself for being with Jose. I felt like shit. I didn’t want to see anyone. I slept all day. ALL FUCKING DAY. I woke up at 8:30pm. Felt a little better about myself, but not […]

Jun 152017
Don't ask. Don't tell. A casual love story.

The other night, I was thinking about Mr TakeMe and I realized that our “relationship” is probably the best “relationship” I’ve had with a man in .. well.. since 2000?  And Mr TakeMe and I don’t really have a relationship. We are kinda friends? Mostly we just fuck. How screwed up is it that a casual fucking relationship is better […]

May 142017
Escaping the Dark: Falling in and out of old patterns.

I have been trying to get over George. He stuck with me in a desperate love. The kind where you can’t breathe, the air isn’t as sweet, and you feel sort of panicky and restless. Then yesterday, George broke his silence. (He tends to communicate via smoke signals on FB) He posted multiple posts on FB, which were aimed at […]

Apr 272017
Here comes the Sun. Do you like making love?

The cloud I was under finally started to lift on Tuesday. And suddenly the world didn’t seem so bad. George was amazingly being more vocal and talkative in text, which is very much not his normal. Today though, (Wednesday) George was back to his normal snarky teasing ways. -sigh- But we did manage to meet up and despite some drawbacks […]

Apr 042017
Darkness has crept back in and seems to want to stay.

I’ve been meaning to write about my time with Garath on Saturday, but I can’t seem to pull myself together. I had a bad health scare right after my last post, and I’m still not fully recovered. I did meet up with Garath though, but had it not been on the books and been forever since I’d seen him.. I’d […]