Aug 062018
 
Dating, Loneliness, and Depression

Shocker.. I’ve started dating again. I wasn’t planning on it, but one day there was a meme going around about how if you don’t ask for what you want you’ll never get it. And another stating that if you don’t grab or go for it now, someone else will take it. So I decided to start saying “Yes”. Yes to […]

Jul 292017
 
And a fun time was had by all... until daylight came.

So tonight was interesting. Tonight I got into a long conversation with a woman (lesbian) who I have a platonic crush on. It was a good long conversation. Which oddly enough my favorite eye candy, Blake – heart throb/would kill if we dated – later joined in and agreed that I am SHIT at picking out men. Because I am. […]

Jul 042017
 
End of Fuckboy Setting: Gearing up for actual dating.

So I woke up late (10pm) last night as usual, and debated on showering vs going back to bed.  So I text Mr. TakeMe and ask if we’re having sex tonight. Keep in mind, that we’ve agreed that he’s just a fuckboy to me. Just sex. No emotions. Nothing resembling a relationship. Mr TakeMe replies: “Come to the [name] bar […]

Jul 022017
 
The Official Fuckboy Setting, also met someone new.

Saturday night, I am dolled up. I’m out at the bars and just arrive at the second bar when. Mr TakeMe messages me. It’s Saturday night and I know he has his kid. He can’t leave his house. Mr TakeMe: Hi How’s your night going? Me: Lol. I’m good. How’s my fuckboy? Mr TakeMe: Yes ma’am if that’s what you […]

Jul 012017
 
Adventures in Drinking. Also the return of Mr. TakeMe.

So I somehow managed to get drunk AND piss people off, while still having a great night. I’m still confused about it all really. But let’s start near the beginning. I woke up at 8pm. (Yes you read that right). To a FB message from George giving me a heads up that he was going out or at least thinking […]

Jun 242017
 
The power of a good dress.

So after accepting Mr TakeMe for who he is, my mind settled and clarity snuck in. I finally felt good. Clear. Motivated. I’m sure there’s other factors that went into it as well as my health plays a part in all this odd emotional brain bullshit too. But feeling clear.. I finally cleaned out my car. I suddenly realized that […]