Jul 022017
 
The Official Fuckboy Setting, also met someone new.

Saturday night, I am dolled up. I’m out at the bars and just arrive at the second bar when. Mr TakeMe messages me. It’s Saturday night and I know he has his kid. He can’t leave his house. Mr TakeMe: Hi How’s your night going? Me: Lol. I’m good. How’s my fuckboy? Mr TakeMe: Yes ma’am if that’s what you […]

Jul 012017
 
Adventures in Drinking. Also the return of Mr. TakeMe.

So I somehow managed to get drunk AND piss people off, while still having a great night. I’m still confused about it all really. But let’s start near the beginning. I woke up at 8pm. (Yes you read that right). To a FB message from George giving me a heads up that he was going out or at least thinking […]

Jun 282017
 
I am the furniture.

When Mr. TakeMe is drunk or been drinking at all, we have a wonderful time. He is loving and sweet and we share amazing moments. When he is sober, I am the furniture. I am the reliable chair or snuggly blanket. Always there. Essential to keeping him comfortable, but nothing more. Last night, Mr. TakeMe actually called me. He usually […]

Jun 242017
 
The power of a good dress.

So after accepting Mr TakeMe for who he is, my mind settled and clarity snuck in. I finally felt good. Clear. Motivated. I’m sure there’s other factors that went into it as well as my health plays a part in all this odd emotional brain bullshit too. But feeling clear.. I finally cleaned out my car. I suddenly realized that […]

Jun 222017
 
Gutted like a Fish.

Well.. a lot has happened since my last post. I’d messaged Mr. TakeMe on Sunday (as I wrote in my posts) asking if he wanted to be more than just sex buddies. Which is the last “defined” role we had. He replied that he liked where we were and to keep it just sex. His life was too complicated to […]

Jun 182017
 
This is not the Friend Zone. Please don't let this be the Friend Zone.

Saturday night (last night), .. well actually lets just start with the entire Saturday first. I woke up smelling like Jose. Instant depression. I hated myself for being with Jose. I felt like shit. I didn’t want to see anyone. I slept all day. ALL FUCKING DAY. I woke up at 8:30pm. Felt a little better about myself, but not […]

Jun 152017
 
Don't ask. Don't tell. A casual love story.

The other night, I was thinking about Mr TakeMe and I realized that our “relationship” is probably the best “relationship” I’ve had with a man in .. well.. since 2000?  And Mr TakeMe and I don’t really have a relationship. We are kinda friends? Mostly we just fuck. How screwed up is it that a casual fucking relationship is better […]

Jun 052017
 
Oral Rape Recovery.. when you accidentally go too far, and take steps back.

Mr. TakeMe and I have seen each other most nights since I last posted. He doesn’t like being alone, so we’ve had nights of just cuddling or mostly cuddling, mixed with nights of sex. I’m starting to get attached, and I’m pretty sure that is going to ruin everything. But I think he’s getting attached too. Maybe. Tonight he totally […]