And I think I’ve figured it out. What I got quickly with him – trust, communication, ease, safety – is what I am needing. A best male friend who wants to have sex with me, and is open to the ways in which I want to have sex.
And I’ve probably mentioned this before.. but I’m a bit kinky. I like regular normal every day sex just fine. I like pretty much all sex.
But nothing quite gets me going like the kinky stuff. A nice caring Dominant male, or a willing to please male who takes direction well… and a bit of pain.. a bit of danger.. a bit of…
Well lets just be honest.. I’m all up in 50 Shades of Grey – well the consensual kind. The caring kind. The open hearts loving kind.
It is just IMPOSSIBLE to find.
Seriously, in my entire life, I’ve only had it once… and I was his side piece.. which for a monogamous gal is really kind of cruel and not in a good way.
Anyway, I’ve started looking again. For that one guy… or maybe two.. I think I could be open to two, but since I’m not very “sharing friendly”.. I’m not sure how well that would work.
We’ll see. I’ll be exploring over the next few weeks/months/years.
Cross your fingers. I’ll need it.